day upon day:
all I do is bitch about
the wonders I’ve ruined, the choices
you’ve made, my heart trying to
escape and collapse in on itself in
the middle of the bit.
yet…? whenever I repeat myself this
virus inside my head grows stronger
and stronger. helpless, imagining my
own insane world is shared.
not sadness but another bitter suit in
my deck of cards. grim
unrealities catching up to me and to you.
where is
all the hope
aka Gena’s birthday
Happy birthday, Gena, you don’t read this, I miss you, nobody cares
lol
tell me all you know about orgo.
(I don’t know man it’s been so
long and I can only try to
remember and cry in anticipation).
The more I listen, the
more I disappoint. Whispers
in the dark. I forgot how to do
this and it’s not coming back.
The cover of the book I’ll
write will be lined with red felt.
t mobile just straight up makes me sad
*dies*
a+ life advice
“We look for places where the math is right. Meaning what? Meaning that population is about to explode—-we can predict that just by looking at age histogram—-and per capita income is about to take off the way it did in Nippon, Taiwan, Singapore. Multiply those two things together and you get the kind of exponential growth that should get us all into fuck-you money before we turn forty.
This is an allusion to a Randy/Avi conversation of two years ago wherein Avi actually calculated a specific numerical value for ‘fuck-you money.’ It was not a fixed constant, however, but rather a cell in a spreadsheet linked to any number of continually fluctuating economic indicators. Sometimes when Avi is working at his computer he will leave the spreadsheet running in a tiny window in the corner so that he can see the current value of ‘fuck-you money’ at a glance.”
(Source: deductioneers)
Do I do these things out of boredom,
or out of self-loathing?
Am I descending into
madness, or am I descending
out of it?
Does the disappointment come
from having done too much
bad or not enough good?
Mao TV is not obsession or
consumption. It is stagnation,
powerlessness, not being able
to get into my own head.
here is a story
my coworker applied to law school this year & was accepted to several top 5 programs (without significant aid offers). she wasn’t sure whether she should go to one of those top programs & take out 250k in debt or someplace less prestigious on a full scholarship….
lol indentured servitude
#99 red balloons may be the most important song
#orders to identify to clarify and classify
#informed sources:
#kept safe;
#the book changes as you read it
#the quick brown fox jumps over the lazy hedgehog
#the book is a secret to none:
#but like Mao TV, it is a relic of a generation that never existed
#the miasma of quotes tires me out
